You Don’t Have Secrets When You Have a Toddler

This pregnancy has been remarkably different to when I was pregnant with Jake. With Jake, I was tired, but not to the same extent I am this time.

With Jake, I had constant headaches, in fact, I remember going to the GP when I was 9 weeks pregnant asking if there was anything I could do to stop them.This time, I have had one or two really bad headaches, but that’s it.

With Jake, I had no sickness whatsoever. This time, it’s easier to count the days I haven’t been sick. It isn’t necessarily confined to the morning, it’s been at different times of day and night. The other week, 1am!

It’s not something I’ve hidden, in fact, even if I wanted to, I don’t think I’d be able to. Having to leave Jake’s breakfast on the side whilst running to the loo, hand over my mouth and telling hubby where Jake’s breakfast is, and emerging from the bathroom with red eyes isn’t really being subtle about it.

Yesterday, I was out with my friend and I had to pop to the baby change with Jake, which was in a disabled loo. It wasn’t the most pleasantly fragranced of places, and once the nappy was changed, I was sick. It wasn’t something I wanted to tell hubby about necessarily, nor was it that I wanted to hide it, I just didn’t bring it up in conversation.

Last night, we popped out to do a bit of shopping, and Jake was chattering away in the back of the car as usual and piped up with “Mummy sick, toilet!” I laughed because I’d actually forgotten about it, but hubby said “When were you sick?”

Like I said, it wasn’t that I wanted to hide it particularly, I just didn’t feel like I needed to bring it up (unlike my lunch). Jake however, disagreed.

It would appear that when you have a two-year old, you don’t have secrets.

The Story So Far…

So, I announced my pregnancy, and then I disappeared. I’ve had so many lovely comments from people, so thank you. We are very excited, but at the same time wondering how we are going to cope with two!

I found out I was pregnant on August 1st, very early on actually, I was only 3 weeks and 3 days. I left it a few days before I went to the GP, because I wanted to make sure it was really happening, and not another chemical pregnancy/early miscarriage again. Quite frankly, I’m not sure how I would have coped with another. But at the same time, I knew I couldn’t leave it too long before I went to the GP because I had to be referred to the endocrine team because of my thyroid.

To be totally honest, I thought that if anything was going to make for a complicated pregnancy, it would be because of my 6 months of chemo. I was wrong. What makes for a complicated pregnancy, is my thyroid, or lack of. I never thought that not having a thyroid would class me as a high risk pregnancy. Apparently, it does.

I need to have blood tests every 4 weeks to monitor my thyroxine and calcium levels. I must have extra growth scans at 28, 32 and 36 weeks. Because mum is a diabetic, I must have a Gestational Diabetes test done at 26 weeks, add to the mix that I am rhesus negative, and because of my chemo I must have an ECG done fairly soon and another one done in my last trimester.

The hospital I am under has a very lovely birthing centre. I was unable to use it when I was having Jake, because I had a bleed at 35 weeks and therefore they wanted to monitor me in labour. We were really upset about this, because we had agreed that we were going to have a home birth. So this time, I really wanted at least a birthing centre birth, but it’s looking like that won’t be allowed. However, if all of these tests I’m having come back normal, I will ask again, and ask for a second opinion if necessary.

I am now 12 weeks and 1 day pregnant, but don’t have my official dating scan until Thursday (12+6) and the wait is driving me crazy, although I think we need to take out a second mortgage for the scan pictures we want to buy as they are a whopping £6 each!

We paid for a private scan at 7 weeks and saw a little heartbeat flickering away, and we had a scan at 10 weeks as I had some spotting and some pain, so the doctor sent me to our local Early Pregnancy Unit for a scan. Again, all was fine and we saw a tiny baby measuring 31mm with a healthy heartbeat. So we decided to announce it to our friends and family because they say that if you see a heartbeat at 10 weeks, the chances of miscarriage drop to 1%. Fairly good odds, I’d say.

I have felt completely different throughout this pregnancy to how I was with Jake. I was never sick with Jake, but this time I have been very sick. The lovely Jax is very kindly sending me some  Lillipops Iced Soothies designed for pregnancy nausea.

So that, in a fairly big nutshell is the pregnancy so far. I’m so glad to be able to share this new journey with you, rather than a cancer one!