Watching my Weight

Last night, I joined Weight Watchers. As I mentioned previously, I was referred by my GP. I asked for this referral, it wasn’t a case of the doctor looking at me and saying “You’re fat, I’m referring you” I asked for help. Because I know that I am overweight, and because I hate it.

In the past, I have successfully done Slimming World. It worked really well. I lost over 2 stone and was a slinky size 8/10 before I got pregnant. I was just, literally JUST at my ideal weight for height and think I looked OK.

Anyway, I digress.

Last night was my first night at WW after my referral came through. I was nervous. Whenever I’ve been to Slimming World in the past, I always had my husband or a friend with me. This time, it’s me on my own. I was chatting to my friends on-line and admitted my fears, they said “You never know, you  might meet some new friends for life” So I went with an open mind.

This WW group is a group that has been set up especially for fatties that have been referred by their GP. They didn’t use those exact words, but that’s what it is, let’s not beat around the bush. But fairly soon after walking in, I realised I was the youngest by far and that the majority of members were 60+.

I had to fill a form in, I got weighed and was told that my point allowance was 27. I was then show a load of products that I could buy to help me. I ended up coming away with books, a pedometer (which I was doing really well with this morning  then Zack somehow managed to reset it!) and a magazine, plus a headache!

I am really struggling to get me head around the “Pro Points” plan and trying to work out how many points a jacket potato is (on Slimming world they were “free” on a green day, so am not liking the fact that now it’s pointed!) and what I can and can’t eat.

I’m sure I will get there. But right now I’m finding it hard to understand, and am hungry because I’m too scared to eat anything just in case it’s too many points!


Three Years

Yesterday was three whole years since I started chemotherapy. Jake was this big:


It doesn’t seem like it was three years ago, and a lot has happened since.

I still remember how people used to say “You’re so brave.” I wasn’t. Not in the least bit, I was just doing what I had to do and what anyone else would have done.

I probably wasn’t the most sensible at times, going to soft play with Jake when there was loads of people around, and kids with coughs and colds. And I probably shouldn’t have done Race for Life that year (I ended up in hospital for a week with pneumonia) even though I took it at a slow pace, and our group was one of the last to finish! But, I was just getting through in any way I could.


Three years on and things are “normal” again, in as much as normal can be. I still have check ups, although I have finally moved onto six monthly appointments now. Hopefully, in two years I can be discharged completely.

Zack will be one soon, the baby I wasn’t sure I’d be able to have. And I do feel guilty about the fact that I get to spend more time with him, and that the time I do spend with him isn’t tainted with hospital stays and general post chemo yuckiness, whereas I never got to do that with Jake. And when Jake is old enough to understand, I will explain to him as best I can.


Jake will be starting school this year, and I am proud of the little boy he has become. He has his moments, like all three year olds, but he is mostly a well behaved, lovely little boy. Me? I’m just glad I get to be there to see him off on his first day of big school 🙂


You can be a victim of cancer, or a survivor of cancer. It’s a mindset. – Dave Pelzer

Can Tablets Help You Lose Weight?

I’ve made no secret of the fact I want to lose weight. I’m starting Weight Watchers, next week, which I’m nervous about. Worried about how I’m going to get my head around it all. Although I have friends that are following it, so I know I can ask for help if I need it.

I have been asked to review the XLS Medical Fat Binder tablets for 12 weeks.

XLS-Medical’s active ingredient is LitramineTM binds readily with dietary fat from food and becomes a large fat fibre complex. This fat-fibre complex is too large to be absorbed in the small intestine and is eventually excreted from the body.

After the fat binding phase, the essential fat-soluble vitamins A, D and E are released and absorbed in the body. This optimizes the availability of fat-soluble vitamins for absorption by the body.

I’ve been taking them for a few weeks now, although I am struggling to remember to take them. I know that tablets aren’t the way to lose weight and that is why I am viewing it as a helping hand along with my c25k and as of next week, Weight Watchers.

I haven’t noticed any adverse side affects, no headaches or anything like that, but one thing I can say is that they don’t taste very nice (which isn’t a huge issue as once they’ve gone they’ve gone) and they don’t have a capsule coating, so if you struggle taking pills, these probably aren’t the ones for you.

So, I’m going to give them a proper go, and I will let you know the results. I’m hoping for something positive!


My Fashion Wishlist

One thing I’m looking forward to about losing weight is going shopping and not having to worry about covering the lumps and bumps.

I’ve planned ahead and have had a nose online and found some things I’d like to get when I’m feeling a bit more body confident.

Skinny Jeans
Every girl needs a pair of jeans that make her feel fab. I’m almost slightly embarrassed to admit I’ve never owned a pair of skinny jeans, but only because they have the word “skinny” in them and therefore I haven’t felt worthy!

Skinny Jeans

I like this white tank with a bold black Geek print design (sums me up quite well!). Perfect for tongue in cheek geek chic, which I can pair with converse for laid back style. Which of my five pairs should I choose??

I'm a Geek

I love these shoes! I’ve never had a pair of Rocket Dog’s before, and these are right up my street. I really like the funky apple print, again, they are a bit quirky.

Rocket Dog

This Le Breve khaki jacket has adjustable sides and a zip button fastening. It’s 100% cotton, so nice and breathable too. Perfect to wear with jeans I think.


Skater Dress
This dress is by She & Her. It has a nipped in waist, gently pleated skirt and contrast black peter pan collar. Perfect for dressing up or down. I really like the bird print, as it’s something a bit different. Although  I can’t hear the term Skater Dress without Avril Lavigne’s Sk8er Boi going round in my head!


Shoulder Bag
I love this Paul Frank shoulder bag. I used to have one similar, but I used it so much I wore it out! This bag features the iconic monkey design, a front pocket and zip fastening with an across body shoulder strap.


So those are my wishlist items. What are yours?

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A Postcard from #teamhonk in Ghana #goodwork

By now you will probably have heard about #teamhonk and their trip to Ghana to see the #goodwork that Comic Relief has done.

This year is Comic Relief’s 25th anniversary so three lovely mummy bloggers have gone to Ghana to see what wonderful things the money raised has achieved.

The postcard I have been sent is of a bakery (that was actually featured in the celebrity special of The Great British Bake Off).

This is a digital postcard sent from TeamHonk ( during their travels with Comic Relief in Ghana celebrating #goodwork.

For the past 25 years the money raised through Red Nose Day has been changing the lives of the poorest and most disadvantaged people in the UK and Africa. Let’s Keep Up the Good Work. Find out how at

Bakery Project

For other digital postcards please do check out the linky on


Matilda Mae

Today, the blogging community has been hit with some horrible news. Jennie has had to face what every parent fears. The loss of her beautiful 9 month old daughter, Matilda Mae.

I can’t even begin to imagine what she must be going through. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her all day. I’ve hugged my boys even tighter today and cried tears, along with much of the blogging community. In times like this the bloggers pull together and I am so proud to be a part of it, if only a small one.

Sleep well, Matilda Mae. Sweet dreams, beautiful.